i have this bad habits

i have this bad habit of getting close to people 

and thinking that their always going to be by my side, 

but eventually they always leave.

i have this bad habit of loving people a little too much, 

when they don't even love me back, and when they leave me, 

my heart feels like someone threw it from the sky.

i have this bad habit of caring for people, 

when they don't even care about me at all. 

Perhaps, if they saw through my eyes,

they'll see the scars i have deep down inside.

im tired. im tired. im tired. 

i wish feelings didn't exist. 

why do feelings exist anyways ? 

i always fall for everything and let it destroy me. 

its my fault after all, 

but, i still have hope, 

that one day, 
i ll found a person that shares the same bad habits as me.